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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

just some chit chat


This morning the wind still blows a very cold air, and this morning is 24 hours ago I found out my brother lift this world to go to be at a better place, home with Jesus, I'm I jealous? O'most diffidently, this morning my heart still hurts and the the tears are still there. Our Mom and I will be going to my Terisa's house sometime today, this is my brothers daughter and will start planning. I went to the Dr. yesterday, only because our mom so politely asked me too and had him take me off of work for 2 weeks,and he gave me something to help with the anxiety. the stinking hospital only gives 3 days for in state funerals and 7 days for out of state, when I cry my chest feels like there's hot needles poking in it, the doctor said it's "anxiety, stress, and a broken heart" I spent the better part of the day with our Mom, we didn't talk much, just held each others hand and sat on the couch with my head on her shoulder and her head leaned up against mine, she said "Sis, your all I got now" I use to call my brother almost every week end, except for this past month, cause him and mom had words and I didn't appreciate him being like that too her, but I would call him and (if you would excuse my french) b*tch to him about Larry, the kids, our mom work or just what ever and I can hear his words he'd say to me now "I know sis, or Sis, don't talk like that, or just plane ole Sis" I can remember growing up, I wanted to marry my brother, and he use to tell me "For gosh sakes, please don't be telling people that, they'll think we have some kind of weird relationship" well we did have a relationshipt, it was called a " true brother and sister love" I cried this morning......

8 comments:

LisaShaw said...

Annette, I found you through Donetta who asked us to pray for you. I'm very sorry for the loss of your brother. I pray for God's comfort around your entire family.

Love and prayers.

Amrita said...

My heart and tears are for you Anette

Donetta said...

Oh Dear Heart.
I wish I could sit beside you still and comfort you in the silence of my compassion for you. This in time will ease for now know that many are holding you in our prayers and hearts.
I am hear if your of a heart to call. If there is any comfort or support that I can offer you Annette , I am here.

Vickie said...

Annette, I'm glad you're taking time. I think you're going to need it. I wish I could be there for you, just to sit, give you a hug, or even fix a meal. Of course the way my cooking has been lately, you might be grateful that I can't be there. Lot's of hugs and prayers.

Vickie

Denise said...

Girl.... I hate to know how you hurt, and this morning I was talking to my older brother, we talked for a while and then said our goodbyes, a few minutes later I was thinking and praying about you and your loss and I picked up the phone and called my brother back just to tell him I loved him..

You are a sweet blessing in my life and I cry tonight because of your loss...

Irene said...

Annette, I'm so sorry for your loss. I am awfully glad you are with your mom to help each other through a most difficult time. You are most certainly in my prayers.

Joni said...

Hang in there...we love ya'

Lori said...

Dear Annette,

I am a blogger friend of Kimberly's and her sweet daughter, Jamie. (Jamie & I found our little Angel's through the same adotpion agency:))...I saw Kimberly's note about your loss and just wanted to say how very sorry I am. I have one brother and we are very close. I cannot imagine losing him. It makes me sad that you have to go through this. My sincere sympathy...and a ((hug))...Lori

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