This is me.....

My photo
California, United States
I am a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a aunt, a friend, a godmother, and best of all....A child of God!!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

There will be VICTORY....One day!


Hi Everyone! I haven't gotten on the computer cause on Saturday I worked then off to the races for some good fun and excellent fire work show they put on, and then Sunday I woke to an extremely achy back, I think on Friday when I was cleaning both bathrooms and vacuumed the house and mopped all floors I flared up my back, went to the Doctor on Monday, so I know I was hurting if I go to the Doctor cause I never go and he said I pulled my muscle, DAH!!!! he thinks, nothing worse than a sore back and I just didn't feel like getting on....Yesterday after I got my E~mail from my Dee (see post below) I sat outside and cried and Amanda noticed me crying "Momma please don't cry, please Mom" she said as she hugged me and rubbed my back, "I know you love Dee but don't give that Devil the privilege of thinking he's won, God can heal her" I totally lost it then, here is this young beautiful lady, that I argue with all the time telling me this! I was truly delighted, delighted that God HAS made an impact on her life, somewhere, delighted that she wasn't afraid to say anything like that, most teenagers would of let their mother sit outside and cried, not her, she was at my rescue! I prayed for Dee again last night and I told our Heavenly Father that I didn't want her to die, the Sweet Holy Spirit told " My Sweet Child, she will never die, she will always be alive" I sat up in my bed and thought about that for along time and you know, she will never be dead, she will ALWAYS be alive, maybe not in this physical world, but in Gods land and always in my heart, thoughts and mind! and all day I have thought about that and what the Holy Spirit told me just keeps repeating it self in my brain, like a broken record, over and over, and over. I love Dee and I know for a fact she loves God, every time she talked about going to heaven, she'd get a twinkle in her eye, and I so bad don't want her to ever lose that twinkle, I know shes very scared to do chemo, very scared and chemo was last result, but like Denise, from "Life at my house" has told me "God can heal her, he's not afraid of some stupid ol cancer" and I believe that, now its time for me to truly start believing it and claiming the victory, whether, shes here or in heaven, she WILL be cancer free one day!!!

3 comments:

Donetta said...

I love you so much...
the stress of Dee may be hindering your back too. Be gentle with yourself.
Your daughter loves you so much that she is following the example you have lived before her...in loving you

Denise said...

Love ya girl and praying for Dee...... I smiled when I read the words that the Holy Spirit spoke to your spirit....... How wonderful the words that HE speaks to us....... There is no death for the child of God, we have passed from death unto life and will live forever...... We are in our forever now and the only thing we will do is pass through a shadow! What a wonderful God HE is..... HE holds her in HIS hands and HE loves her a hundred thousand times more than we can imagine....

Denise said...

Now regarding your comment on my blog..... You are a hoot! AND I guess that if you look at that "tick" just right you might see 2 side views of faces and a violin in the middle, BUT only YOU would see that!

Have a wonderful weekend girl.. and prayers going up for Dee..

~The mind is like a parachute
it works best when it is opened~

~ REMINDER~

~ REMINDER~
October is breast awareness month!

P E A C E ! ! !

P E A C E ! ! !

Johnanthon

Our F A T Cat

Our F A T Cat
Amanda with Licorious

~ Joyce's Girl's~ Thanksgiving'08

~ Joyce's Girl's~ Thanksgiving'08
Amanda, me, my mom & my niece Terisa

Thank you Sweet Donetta

Thank you sweet Denise

Thank you Denise~

Thank you Denise~

Thank you Denise~

Lemonade Award

Lemonade Award
Thank you Patti

We All Are Warrior's!

We All Are Warrior's!

Honest Scrap Award

Honest Scrap Award
Thank you Stephanie

Friendship Award

Friendship Award
Thank you Joni

Love your blog award

Love your blog award
Thank you Kim

Loveable Blog award

Loveable Blog award
Thank you Sweet Deena

Brillante We Blog Award

Brillante We Blog Award
Thank you Joni

Our family

Our family
"Our Kelsey Dog"
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass. It's about learning to dance in the rain.