Saturday, February 21, 2009
" every where teengers....& Gilbert"
I woke this morning to find a house full of teenagers!! YIKES, Blake on the couch, that's Amanda and Johnanthond friend since elementary school, Chris on the floor in the living room, Amanda has a day bed, and either she or Chris had dragged it out the extra mattress to the living room and their he laid! I know all of them went bowling at midnight, and guess what? 3 of the 4 will be waking to the sound of my Kenmore Vacuum (hehehehe) I know I had wrote that I would post about my Dad and I still might, who knows? I had the strangest dream about him, seems so real to me...I dreamed that he gave me a picture of himself to post on my blog! I can see the picture in my mind so clearly and I can see him standing before me so clearly, my heart wants to cry but wants to be happy too, in my dream I could smell him, not the smell from the cancer, but his very own unique smell, its mind boga leaning! I loved this man, he was my best friend, he fought the cancer so hard to see my first baby, that's a whole different story there, a baby that came into this world when my mom already had so much on her plate to deal with, then I dropped that on it. I remember being in labor with Amanda and wanted him there at the hospital, begging him to please let Mom put him in that wheel chair and come be by my side, I told him I didn't need Larry's hand to hold just his, but he was so tired that day, so I ordered the nurses not to hang up my phone and told mom not to hang up their phone, only if it was an emergency then she could and my dad listened to everything, I had my Dr. explained things to him over the phone, my Dr. knew my dad was dying and he heard everything! Gilbert married my mom when I was in the 6 grade and raised me! he hired a PI to find my real dad for me, him and Momma got in this huge fight over that, and he said "Joyce, every child deserves the right to know their own father, you cant make her mind up for her, you might think he's an a** , but she has the right to make her own mind up about him" I miss him so much, you have no clue how it hurts, and I really don't know why I am so sad about it, he's in heaven I have no doubt about it. He was perfect in every sense of the word, he was so funny too, when him and my mom would be arguing, instead of fighting back with words, he'd walk our property line, we had 20 acres and you could his little mouth just a flapping away, and I'd watch him from their bedroom window and giggle and then when he decided to come back in things where fine on his part! Life wasn't easy for him and Mom, he had 3 children from a previous marriage, that hated Momma, he was a drinker, and a lady chaser, but they worked through all those awful things and made the marriage work, but in my eyes no matter what he did he was perfect!! He never, never, never was mean to me, he'd get mad at Momma sometimes for being to mean to me. I finally had a Daddy in my life!!
my Dad loved Mickey mouse, that's why the mickey mouse picture!
My Dad's birthday was yesterday, he'd been 77
Posted by Annette at 7:26 AM