I remember this day....April 4, 2010

Out side the wind is blowing and just a tad bit chilly...I wanted to re pot a plant but having doubts now, but there is always later on today. Today I'm gonna go and get my hair colored, cover up mother natures high lights, I dont like that color, she might but I dont really care for it, I love getting my hair colored I just feel so much better. Monday made a year that my daddy took GODS hand and traveled a beautiful road with him and it just bothered me so much, I relived that day in my head, the driving straight threw except to stop and get gas, use the restroom and a few snacks, I remembered sitting in the back seat and hearing my Uncle say " O...so he's brain dead and is on life support" looking out the window and sobbing, all by myself, no one to hugging me, just letting me sob, even thou I didnt have my daddy growing up and a better part of my young adult life, I knew then at that moment I would never have him at all, remember getting to the hospital in Tulsa Oklahoma buzzed to go in ICU and having the nurse take me to daddy's room, walking over to him, hugging him & crying, cried so much I soaked his gown, rubbing my fingers threw his thick hair, rubbing his ear lopes, thats something I picked up from him, it was trait I inherited from him, the Dr talked to me and said " Your sister and brother's left him on life support for you Annette" he took me to his office showed me his MRI scan on his brain and I said " Just take him off of that damn machine" the nurses came in shut everything off and removed everything and I sat there and watched his numbers go down, down, down......I stood by his bed and prayed to GOD thanking him for allowing me the short time I had him back in my life, and the spirit of JESUS was there in that room, you could feel it so strong and I felt good about his leaving this world, no more tears where shed that day, a year ago today we gave daddy an old fashion Assembly Of God funeral, laid him to rest next to my baby brother Johnny....

I miss Oklahoma, miss the laid back feeling of life, miss the polite people, miss the beautiful clean roads, miss my family, and most of all miss not going to visit daddy when I want, at one time I wanted to live there but as of now, no way!! to much drama from my sister, if I was to move there it would be far from them all, except for my Aunt Jeanette, but then I get to thinking my family and friends are here and always will be....