Silence....you can learn so much from it....

I love coming home after work and no one being here, just so silent after the hustle and bustle of work...then Johnanthon comes home blast his stereo and starts laundry...all calmness has come to an end, and my life begins again being a mother, which I love, one of my favorite things in the world and supper has got to be started, I love my life as Mom & wife. Glad I taught my son to be independent and responsible, but from time to time he will sucker me into doing his laundry by saying something like this that melts my heart " I like it when you do my laundry mom, it smells and just feels so good" how can I say " No " to that??? I worked this last week end so tomorrow I will do my Saturday cleaning, now only if I could get these children, who are adults to scrub their own toilets and wipe their counter off in the bathroom... I just realized my daddy left this world almost a year ago I miss not being able to call him and talk to him from time to time, but I have taken his leaving so much better that I have my brothers leaving, maybe because I was raised with my brother being in my life so much more than my dad, maybe because my brother knew me so much better that my dad, maybe cause my brother never walked out of my life, but no matter what the reason is or was for my daddy not to be in my life I still miss him and missed him so much when I was little, but was thankful for the time I did have him in my life. . . .So thankful for having my Mom and the BEST step dad ever to be always be around, to be there when my heart got broke by my first love, to see me drive for the first time, see me go on my first date, to see me go to my first prom, to see everything sad & happy and my brother was there to see so many of them as well, but do I miss those 2 men not being in my life anymore? absolutely yes. . . .I have been going through so much these last 4 weeks, that I will share with all of you later on this week and it's made me realize to ENJOY life and all the beautiful people that are in my life now, I have learned to talk to GOD so much more these last few weeks and to look for him in my everyday life, my relationship with GOD has gotten so much stronger and I know that all this is in HIS plans and not of mine, it may not be a plan that I like, but my HEAVENLY FARTHER knows whats best for his daughter and my relationship with my husband and my children has gotten so much deeper and more personal, and my Mom. . . . . well I've learned to listen more and take her advice to different level and to apply to MY LIFE and appreciate her in such a way that I never realized, so in saying all this, LOVE WITH ALL YOUR HEART & TELL EVERYONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU....... I LOVE YOU~