I normally don't watch baseball, but man I have been tuned into this series this year and our San Fransisco GIANTS won it!!!! I am so happy~ Last night as I watched the series, I would get so upset cause I had to get up and pass candy, cause the rest of us would all be glued to the T.V. So much has been going on, last Tuesday made a year my brother left this world, I wont use the word "died" cause he isnt dead, his soul is still very much alive, he lives in a better neighborhood now, and 3 days later I went outside to check out the clouds, cause it was cloudy here, and you all know how I love the rain, and as I looked up in the sky somethin
g just told " you need to let go " I cried cause I knew who was talking to me, I said " LORD, I can't, not yet please" I heard a sweet calming voice tell me " My sweet child, your not letting go, your letting him live his dream with me" that did, I sat down in the chair and sobbed...I told my brother I had to let him go, cause my deepest desire was for him to be happy and as long as I wouldnt let go, he would never be completely happy, and that I would love him and miss so very much the rest of my living life, but I had to do what my heavenly farther wanted me to do, today I talked about him at work about something he did, and I looked at my friend & co worker and said " Aren't memories wonderful" she lost her sister about 10 years ago to breast "C", she hugged me and we both cried a little, and that pain that all of you told me I would have as long as I held on is gone, I feel so much better, so Thank you all of you for your prayers and most of all your love and understanding, but now I will speak of him from time to time cause LOVE never leaves.....
* My brother loved Cat Tails...
thats why I posted these....
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3 comments:
The love in our heart never leaves, it only makes us stronger.
xoxoxo ~
Dear Annette, you need to do what you need to do. Your brother knows you love him, and if crying makes you feel better you need to do it. I do. My dad's been gone 32 years, and I cried like a baby the other day, I'm sure he'd say, alright already stop with the crying. But we just need to do what we need to do. Never apologize to us we love to hear from you and anything you say is o.k. with me.
sending you hugs....thinking about meeting you and joni a year ago and what a blessing that was...and is! letting go isn't forgetting....it just allows you to remember and smile.
love you,
kimberly
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