Summer time is diffidently here, school last day was yesterday and my Johnanthon is out job hunting, his friend "C" graduates today and then will be heading off too boot camp for the Army, I think in July. Johnanthon went to school this morning to do some welding for extra credits, he came home and told me the teacher invited him and 3 other boys to go on a camping trip sometime this summer, this teacher only picks 4 of his "favorites" and this same teacher hated Johnanthon last year, Johnanthon said, I said "How come honey?" Johnanthon reply "Probably because I was a smart a$$ to him" Uh.....imagine that, a child of mine a smart a$$!!?? I told Johnanthon well see there son, you mature and people change their minds about you and this teacher really does see that your a good guy you just have a dry sence of humor" kind of made me want to cry just a little, I use to tell my Johnanthon' Prove these people wrong about you, let them see that you are a good little boy, he would say back "I dont have to prove nothing to no one but you" ahhhhh, yes, he is my baby. Amanda is taking full advantage of some of her friends being out of school as well, yesterday they all had a " ladies day at the lake", thought I noticed a few things missing from the cupboards, Amanda told me she found out one of her friends are pregnant, I just sat there and shook my head, I said "Let me guess, shes gonna keep the baby uh?" I didnt notice the girl standing there and Amanda's eyes just got HUGE, I just looked at the girl and told her that the best thing she could do was give this baby life, but to seriously think about its future as well as her's, THESE DAMN girls, no excuse to get to pregnant when they can get birth control free, just go figure, this burns me up, but what can I do, probably nothing....
I have had so much going on in my head that I just dont feel like talking to any one, I didnt even want to call Mom the other day but I did cause I had let a week go by with calling her, I think my dads passing is finally hitting home with me, I told my brothers ex wife that my world has been turned upside down in these last 8 months and I am trying so hard to turn it right side up and I'm finding difficult to do, I wonder if I will ever snap out of this? I know people say that God will not give you more than you can handle, but I am having a very, very hard time handling this, first my brother leaving, then 5 months later my real dad leaves, Mom is having issues with her heart, Amanda gives me cr@p all the time over everything, and my Johnanthon is becoming a man and well be serving his country for all of us, and Larry just doesn't understand anything, and work is so demanding, and I'm suppose to handle all of this and keep my sanity too??!!
* and this on my side bar of my blog "Reminders from God".....hmmm, meant for me to read, I didnt read it til after I posted.
Rest more with Me. Alone, away from noise and activity, from these times you come forth filled with Spirit.