Good morning friends!!
It's Wednesday already!!! golly, where has the week gone? Monday & Tuesday where my first full days back to work and it seemed to go fairly good, except for the few people who I hadn't seen on Thursday, before I was sent home and told to go ahead and take Friday off as well, either I am numb to the fact that I have lost 2 very special men in my life in a 5 month period or God has just really cushioned my heart, but I haven't grieved has hard as I did when my brother left, maybe its the distance I had with Daddy, or the fact that I didn't have him full time in my life, like I did Joey, someone asked me "Didn't you find it harder with your brothers leaving, than you do with your Dad?" and honestly I had to respond with "Yea, I have" I wonder why that is?? I still have my time where out of the blue I cry, cry for both of them, but nothing like I did, I do believe God has my heart in the palm of of his hand, and so many times I could feel him wipe my tears and just hold me and let me know all will be OK!!! A heavenly Fathers love is undescribable.
It rained here in my part of Cali. yesterday evening, with hail that stayed around for a few and thunder, I put on my coat and made some coffee and sat outside and enjoyed that time, but these storms are nothing like Oklahoma's, man! Now those are some beautiful lighting shows, when I was there I said "God, please give me one these Oklahoma lighting shows with thunder" ask and you shall receive, a show I got!! then the night before daddy's service it was SO cold and windy, to the point my cheeks where red the next day, but I asked Lord to please give us beautiful day, and guess what? that's right, ask and you shall receive, Sun was warm and no wind, until after everything was done. I miss Oklahoma so bad, and when my Mom decides to take Gods hand and go home to her mansion that shes building, I'm moving to Oklahoma, I told her this and she said "Honey, if you want to move there, don't stay here on my part, go and be happy" I said "I am happy right here with you, and besides you missed me and cried every time I called, imagine what you'd be like if I moved, and I'm all you have" and the tears came from both of us.
My Johnanthon is going to the prom this week end, he always looks so handsome in a tux and the girl hes going with is a friend and just as sweet and cute, shes no bigger than a minute, comes from a wealthy family and gets so upset with Johnanthon when he says anything about her being wealthy, I like that she doesn't see that some people have more than less, she was raised right, in my book!! She's so upset that Johnanthon will be going in the Army, she cried when I told her this and just looked at Johnanthon and he hugged her and said " I'm still here so lets just enjoy the time I am here" shes so little she couldn't hug him back without him bending over, its was sweet.......