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Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Just this & that....

Good morning friends!!
It's Wednesday already!!! golly, where has the week gone? Monday & Tuesday where my first full days back to work and it seemed to go fairly good, except for the few people who I hadn't seen on Thursday, before I was sent home and told to go ahead and take Friday off as well, either I am numb to the fact that I have lost 2 very special men in my life in a 5 month period or God has just really cushio
ned my heart, but I haven't grieved has hard as I did when my brother left, maybe its the distance I had with Daddy, or the fact that I didn't have him full time in my life, like I did Joey, someone asked me "Didn't you find it harder with your brothers leaving, than you do with your Dad?" and honestly I had to respond with "Yea, I have" I wonder why that is?? I still have my time where out of the blue I cry, cry for both of them, but nothing like I did, I do believe God has my heart in the palm of of his hand, and so many times I could feel him wipe my tears and just hold me and let me know all will be OK!!! A heavenly Fathers love is undescribable.
It rained here in my part of Cali. yesterday evening, with hail that stayed around for a few and thunder, I put on my coat and made some coffee and sat outside and enjoyed that time, but these storms are nothing like Oklahoma's, man! Now those are some beautiful lighting shows, when I was there I said "God, please give me one these Oklahoma lighting shows with thunder" ask and you shall receive, a show I got!! then the night before daddy's service it was SO cold and windy, to the point my cheeks where red the next day, but I asked Lord to please give us beautiful day, and guess what? that's right, ask and you shall receive, Sun was warm and no wind, until after everything was done. I miss Oklahoma so bad, and when my Mom decides to take Gods hand and go home to her mansion that shes building, I'm moving to Oklahoma, I told her this and she said "Honey, if you want to move there, don't stay here on my part, go and be happy" I said "I am happy right here with you, and besides you missed me and cried every time I called, imagine what you'd be like if I moved, and I'm all you have" and the tears came from both of us.
My Johnanthon is going to the prom this week end, he always looks so handsome in a tux and the girl hes going with is a friend and just as sweet and cute, shes no bigger than a minute, comes from a wealthy family and gets so upset with Johnanthon when he says anything about her being wealthy, I like that she doesn't see that some people have more than less, she was raised right, in my book!! She's so upset that Johnanthon will be going in the Army, she cried when I told her this and just looked at Johnanthon and he hugged her and said " I'm still here so lets just enjoy the time I am here" shes so little she couldn't hug him back without him bending over, its was sweet.......

2 comments:

kimberly said...

hoping we get your storm here in the next couple of days....our weather says it is heading this way~!!! :-)....would have been wonderful to be out there sharing coffee and hearing you tell what you loved about oklahoma!!!! maybe someday we will get to do that! i hope your days continue to bring comfort....wishing you a wonderful wednesday!!!
hugs and love,
kimberly

Donetta said...

Hi Sis, You know we are Sisters you are a special lady. My sister leaving was harder because we had a deeper intimacy and affiliation where we belonged. Like you with Joey.
I love what you said about the asking. I see so much of it every day. It helps in the good times and in the hard. Sweeter though in the hard times I think cause we notice it more as an embrace.
Steve and I are thinking of a possible trip over to Ca.
I know I must of asked before...where about are you?
We have yet to see whether we will be able to do a little vacation yet. Sure would be nice though to have a fun break.
The weather came my way now it was 90 this week now it is 70* and all windows are open! We have yet to turn on the AC. The master bedroom has become almost too warm but with all the fans on and windows open we are getting along without it. Now the whole of the house will be cooler tonight and fresh too there is a nice breeze. Thanks for sending it along my way :)
Missed you around, hope that were good. Trust we ore or you'd say. Funny still a weakness of mine.
I have been so bad about keeping contact recently with just about everyone.
Loving you

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