Just wondering & thinking

Some days I just don't want to do a dang thing, but I get up and make myself do things, some days are harder than others, I worry about Mom, and wonder how she does it, burying her first and only son, dealing with an older husband who mother nature is showing her signs and his Dr. disagrees with Mom about some matters, and that my dear ones doesn't go over well at all with Mom! Worry about children and what live holds for them, they are GREAT kids, just don't make better judgements, but then again my Mom, I'm sure said the same thing about me and knowing her still does, worry about my friend Dee, who will not take any more chemo after this last round and wonder how much more time I will have with her, so much is going on in my head and heart and I need to be obedient and put all in prayer, which I haven't been doing much of lately, sometimes I wonder why pray?? then I start feeling so bad for thinking like that, I know better than that! I cant believe how one persons leaving this world can affect someone so much as my brothers leaving has done to me, and changes...no one like changes, especially at the work place, we now have a new supervisor and I am not liking it, not one bit!! but willing to give her chance, in my time frame, not trusting her too much right now, I've worked side by side with her, asked her supervisor whats going to happen when she has her baby and he asked me why I asked that, I replied back, " cause I can and I don't appreciate you answering my question with another question!!" so that tell me he doesn't know yet, to answer a question with a question tells all in my book, and fellow co workers backed me up on that!!
I am waiting for our thunder and lighting storm we're suppose to get, waiting, waiting and waiting........