Good morning my sweet friends, missed all of you so much..Larry asked me the other night "Honey whats wrong" I said "I have no inter net to go and visit my friends" glad moving is over and the boxes are dwindling down, but man the stuff, and I'm not a "hoarder" at all, cant stand clutter and the stuff I had, even though I threw out or gave away, I still threw away and gave more away while unpacking boxes, and Amanda, my goodness, that girl don't throw a thing away, I put her bathroom together and the stuff, she could have opened her own second hand store, seriously, wait til she goes and tries to find stuff, for example...4 tooth brushes!? with no names or in containers, like maybe they could have been some guests from the past, 3 hair brushes!?, and ribbons!! for her hair, my goodness every craft person's dream, she don't wear ribbons any more, 1/2 bottles of this and that, shes just a pack rat pure and simple, like her dad. This house is so quite....loving it, but cold, golly gee its cold, its got ceramic 2 ft wide tiles threw out, except for the bedrooms and the way it sits we don't get no afternoon sun, that will be nice come summer, new dual pane windows, those are so nice, cant believe the cupboard space I lost, thank goodness they have cupboards in the garage, I've been utilizing them.
I guess Christmas will be at our house this year, all because Mom heard me tell my niece, my brothers daughter, " MAYBE CHRISTmas will be at our house" well sweet mom must of not heard the word "maybe" and is making plans, I told her I am NOT decorating mom" why sweetie, she asked mommm I'm trying to get my house in order and besides those decorations are some where in that garage, but I will put out a couple of poinsettia's and my Nativity scene and that's it, not really looking forward to CHRISTmas this year, we explained to the kids that we would have CHRISTmas after CHRISTmas, they where good with that!! whew.......
I go back to work on Monday, tired of staying at home, have to go to work just to get rest, kind of scared to go back, I'm OK until I have to talk about my brother and I know people will want to know how he passed, like right now just thinking about it and writing about it, makes me cry, maybe I'll go and buy some 3x5 cards and write it down and just pass those out to everyone who will ask...=) One day I will write why I think I'm having such a hard time with his leaving this world, but I have learned so much from his leaving, perfect example.. I had some words with someone and I saw her at a store she worked at and I would void that store until she got off, but this one time I just didn't care, went in that store like I owned the place, saw her and she and I talked about general stuff this day and as I was leaving I hugged her, I told Larry when we got in the truck " I learned from my brothers death to throw my bullheadedness's away, and besides not forgiving her and forgetting about happened in the past could be the ONE thing that could keep me from getting into heaven and seeing my God, my brother, and my dad, and I'm not going to let ONE person do that" I cried and he hugged me!
I LOVE YOU~