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Tuesday, May 26, 2009

I've got a date, & an up date on my friend......


Today I have an very important date with a great Dr. and I can't hardly wait! he's small but does a great job, he's very throe and quick, my kind of man, gets the job done fast! I see him about every 6 months, I just love him......he's the "RUG DOCTOR" had you going there for a few uh? it's going to be a great day to clean the rugs, it's going to be pretty warm, perfect for drying the carpets! Larry got his father's day present early this year, he, well we needed a new BBQ so badly and Home Depot had a real nice one on sale, well we waited to long to go and check it out, so they where all sold out, but he did manage to find one he liked and I told him "Just get that one, if it's what you like" and after paying that kind of money for it I threw in the grill cover, so for Fathers Day, so he can have something to open I will have Amanda & Johnanthon go in half's and get him the rotisserie part and a gauge that you put on your tank, to let you know how much gas you have, I personally love the old fashion kind of BBQ'er, I like the taste, but Larry's happy with his new toy! and I'm happy I have a date with the "Doctor".
Mom and Bill left Sunday for their 2 week cruse, they sailed out of one of the piers in San Fransisco for Alaska, they will return on the 8! 2 weeks of not talking to her, I cant stand that idea! I miss her already, but she wanted to see the glaciers before they melt away, cause they are melting, she didn't leave her answering machine on this time, so no one sided conversations , dang it!
For those of you that are curious about my friend Dee, I saw her Saturday, and she was in so much pain, I saw her sitting at the nurses station with an ice pack to her jaw, she told me her jaw was hurting, she didn't know if it was a bad tooth, but that she had put some Oral gel on it, had the ice pack on it for the better part of the day and it still was hurting, when I hugged her, very quietly she said "och,och, och" I pushed myself away from this angel and told her I didn't mean to hurt her and quickly went into a office that w
asn't being occupied and started bawling, she came in and hugged me and kissed my face with tears all over it, "Honey, please don't cry for me" she begged, DEE, I said back in a loud voice, I cant stand to see you in pain, I so bad want to shake this sh*t out of you, I know my sweet sweet friend she said, and one day you can shake me all you want when you see me in heaven, shake me with joy when we are reunited! her tumor count is still high, shes not quit ready for the I.V. chemo, still giving the chemo pills a chance, and she said her jaw pain is probably the "C" going into her jaw bone, shes going to see her oncologist (cancer Dr.) today. I have mixed feeling toward God right now, I am so angry with him, I've begged, pleaded, fasted and yet my friend is still hurting, that's all I've begged him for, was for her not to be in pain, but then I love him with all my binging and I know this is bringing me closer to him. I think my friends time here with all of us is just about coming to close, I see her looking so much more tired, tired of the pain, tired of the wondering, tired of being poked for labs, tired of not wanting to get up, tired of taking pain pills, just tired all the way around. She did ask me if she ever gets hospitalized would I come and hold her hand, she wants to feel my hand in hers when she leaves.....of course I would you silly angel I said as I looked into her eyes with tears in them, of course I will.......
PLEASE!!!!!!!!! PRAY for my friend Dee, pray that this pain she's enduring will leave, or at least not be so bad. Thank you to all of you who have and are still praying her.

4 comments:

Donetta said...

I was ready Watchman Nee the Spiritual Man...It was stated about how the real worship is not effected by how we feel (good/bad) . It is in the loving God where ever we are. Other wise we are just worshiping that euphoric feeling we get when things are going well.

Food for thought.

Donetta said...

There is a package in the mail for you. 3-5 days out. Keep a watch for it.

Vickie said...

I'm sorry to hear about Dee. I pray she'll find comfort. You are an amazing person Annette with your capacity to love people. I admire you so much. I've been thinking about you too.

Amrita said...

Have a good date.

Pray Dee gets well soon.

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