I will finish my journey today after writing this poem, I don't know if all of you know how I feel about ADHD children, but I can't educate myself enough about them and their journey, I found this poem on the computer, and I thought this sound's so much like me, so here it goes.......
You've Seen Me Before
by Michelle Flood.
I'm the Mom dragging her kid out of the car in the school parking lot while he holds on to the interior for dear life.
I'm the Mom walking her kid to school wearing no shoes or coat when its 12 degree outside.
I'm the Mom who issues a sigh instead of a gasp when caller ID shows its the school calling. Again.
I'm the Mom who's cell phone number is on the school speed dial.
I'm the Mom who has strangers tell her she has the most charming son while caregivers tells her he's exhausting and suggest I look for care else where.
I'm the Mom who knows to hold on to the stair railing so she doesn't get pushed down the stairs in her child's rage.
I'm the Mom who put her kid in the room then sat outside crying while he emptied his closet and threw hangers at the door, chipping off the paint.
I'm the Mom who had a lock on her kid's bedroom door to keep him in his room at night when he was young.
I'm the Mom who knows the best way to carry a 50 lb kid in a manner where she cant be kicked, hit or bit.
I'm the Mom who can turn her back for 2 seconds and lose her kid in the hotel, on a cruise ship, at the park, or anywhere that child abductors might be lurking.
I'm the Mom who will let her 6 year old go into the bathroom at McDonald's alone rather then to suffer a meltdown of epic proportions.
I'm the Mom who people shake their heads at and say,"That kid wouldn't be doing that if he were my son" or "That kid just needs a swift kick in the pants",
on the other hand, I'm the Mom who gets bear hugs and "I love you" with no prompting and right out of the blue.
I'm the Mom who gets asked at bedtime, " Will you share some special time with me tonight?"
I'm the Mom who has a little boy hugging and kissing her with total abandon-in front of his friends.
I'm the Mom who smiles proudly as her son charms the waitress, the mailman, and the pizza delivery kid.
I'm the Mom who gets to celebrate even the tiniest accomplishments of her son because each one means so much.
I'm the Mom who has a son who can double over laughing because he has such a great sense of humor.
I'm the Mom who can love her son through good and bad unconditionally.
I'm the mom with an ADHD son!
to finish my storey..... At this time 18 years ago, I was still in the hospital laboring and begging for a c- section by now, "What happin to the pitocen you wanted Annette?" the Dr. asked, "O screw it, I cant do this anymore" time went on, and on, and on, it seemed like to me, the next thing I relized I was being wheeled in the delievery room, my fat feet put into stirup's and blue drap over my fat thigh's, the show was on......."Momma, I went you to push like you havent potty in month's" after all thats what it felt like, so with that in mind and a mirror in place for me see this little angles arrival, I did that a couple of time's, and then I saw this angels entrance, now I didnt want to stop, and out came this little, wet, angel, "You better go buy some Barbie dolls and chalk for hop scotch, she's simply beautiful Annette", I remember that first kiss, right above her left eye on the temple, the first cuddle time, al I could do was say,"O Thank you dear God" this angel came in weighing 7lbs 12 oz, and 21" long, perfect, perfect, perfect baby, goldy blond hair, dainty long fingers, and all mine, this baby is now 18 today and is such a lady with so much class! she will offically be 18 at 12:44 p.m., and a small note, she shares her birthday with the Dr. that delivered her.