I must go travel

I will be gone for awhile, have to do some out of state traveling, my real father is in the hospital in Arizona, he's has a brain bleed and they are going to have to do a procedure Monday, maybe even open the skull up, working in the hospital doesn't help, we know too much for our own good, but I put my self on the other side of the fence so to speak at time's like these, it's the not knowing that is killing me inside, at first I wasn't going to go, but like my Aunt said, "Do you want to spend some little time with your dad while he knows you, or see him when he might not know you after the surgery, or even see him dead" so off I go, growing up I didn't have him in my life, until my mom married my step dad and he told my mom that I had the right to make my own mind up about him, not what she wanted me to think about him, and I know God had him absent from my life for a reason, and brought us back for a reason, I can remember as a little girl, I mean I'm talking kindergarten praying, "O' God, let me one day meet my real dad" and as year's passed I kept that prayer going, and it happened. My heart aches to know he's sick and I'm so far away, I need my real dad to know I forgive him, and that I love him and that what ever happens is going to for a reason, just the other day when I talked to him we were talking about the how cruel the world is becoming, and I told him, "The time is near, and people better get right" isn't it ironic that we had that conversion, I do know God knew this was going to happen, so I end this please pray for my husband and I to have safe travel, and to guide the Dr's hand's to make the right move" I will write as soon as I get back. Love to you all!!!